My Writing Journey
I fell into writing. I wasn’t someone who had always written or who had dreamt of being a writer, and to be honest I didn’t know writing was even a job possibility. So, with this weeks post I hope I can show you that anyone, from any background can achieve personal success with words. And that there is no ‘right’ way to get into writing; we all have our own story to follow.
It was Sunday. The sky was grey and with an autumn chill to the air it was the perfect conditions for a writing session. I took a stroll into town, through the drizzle and wind, and aimed for shelter in my favourite coffee shop, Café Nero. Once arriving, I bee-lined to my usual table and began tapping away at my laptop.
To give you some context, It’s September 2019 and I’m editing the first draft of my first ever book. A journey I have been embarking on for over two and half years. However, this particular editing session was special, as I stumbled upon a treasure hidden within my work: an old word count. Simply, it stated 3250 words. This made me pause.
For an essay, a letter or even a blog 3000+ words are a substantial amount, but for a novel it might not even cover the first chapter. So, when I wrote this I would have been in the very early stages of writing. This was such a wonderful gem to find, as it made me reflect on how far I had come. Over two years later, my draft is now 100,000 words deep. And so, I sat back, took a sip of my coffee and thought, I can’t believe I did this.
For someone who has studied the sciences and works in a botanical field, one would never imagine I could or would write a fictional book: even me. And yet I have. It may be messy and need a lot of editing, but I can say with conviction that I have written a book. And so, I say like many of my other blog posts, don’t judge yourself or put yourself in a box. Whether you’re a vet, an artist, a barista or a swimmer if you want to write it’s okay to do so. If you get joy from it, it’s okay to do so. If people judge you and don’t value the point of words, so what? It’s okay to do so. Don’t limit yourself on what you think is right or what others value as important. if you enjoy it just smile and crack on; you’ll feel happier in the long run.
When I think back to my university days studying environmental science I was always riding on an average grade, not bad, but not top of the range either. This changed during my 4th year in 2015 when I started to embrace my creative flare, I figured I had nothing to lose so I might as well include a different spin on my work. So what if I included that diagram that took me hours, sometimes days to draw on word? If I was having fun creating my reports then hopefully my professors would enjoy reading them. And it paid off, I shot to the top of the pack and it made me change my mind on creativity. It really is unbelievably important and yet it’s still undervalued; particularly in education. It doesn’t have to be separate from our normal daily lives. Creativity is a gift that we all have, and all should embrace. It can brighten our days and that is nothing to be ashamed of. Despite saying this, I never thought my inner artist was good enough and so I had ignored her until this point.
Now forward to the summer of 2017. I had moved to New Zealand and was working in a retail job (albeit with amazing people), which I really didn’t want to be doing. Nature was my calling, but alas I struggled to get substantial volunteering or work in this field. But you do what you’ve got to do to live, there’s also no shame in that. And yet, despite my turmoil of not getting that ‘dream’ job, interestingly this was the summer where my creative writing took flight.
But, how did this happen?
Well, my manager at the time took me to an author’s talk. It was hosted at the library literally across the road from the shop we worked at and it changed my life.
The author was Nalini Singh, an exceptional romance author who I would highly recommend. Seeing her happiness, experiencing her kindness and feeling Nalini’s amazing energy as she talked about writing her books made me want to be as excited about my work as she was. At the time (if you didn’t guess) I wasn’t happy in my job and so I figured I could give writing a go and see if it gave me equally as much joy. That night I went home and started mind mapping book ideas. And I tell you, I’ve never looked back. It has now been two and a half years and I’m still plugging away. I’m pretty sure I have re-written my book four times over, but this has just been part of my journey in finding my voice. Passages I wrote at the beginning, needed a complete overhaul and it has shown me how far and how much I have grown as a writer. It’s amazing.
To this day, I have a nervous, jittery energy that doesn’t calm unless I get some sort of writing done. Writing basically calms my soul and gives me a peace that only a few other things in life can accomplish. Don’t get me wrong there have been challenges along the way. In 2018, when I moved back to the UK I had a 3 month period when I wrote nothing and it felt awful. Even just this past week, I suffered such a crashing wave of doubt I struggled to get anything done. I hated everything I was writing, I thought I sucked and there was a resistance I needed to push through. But, the main thing is I pushed back. I care too much to give up. Despite the fact that I often don’t feel worthy, I often don’t feel enough. I often don’t feel gifted. When this happens I have to remind myself that if the universe is making me fearful and anxious, then it means I need to take this on, it means the thing I’m doing matters. As they say, if you’re nervous then it shows you care. And I really care about my writing.
So… What do you care about?
What makes you nervous and jittery?
Remember, we’re all extraordinary.
So, believe in yourself, as only you can achieve your dreams!
Thank you for reading and please feel free to leave a comment with your thoughts.
Happy writing!










